image girl i dont know if i can describe where the need to test myself came from it comes from within i think, when i started muay thai it wasnt to fight it was just for fun and to keep fit but the desire to fight came from within. and for me it wasnt to prove myself to anyone else im not the kind of person who is influenced bywhat other people do or dont think of me it was something i needed to prove to and for myself i wanted to see if i had the belife and conviction in myself to do it as anyone who has fought will tell you its bloody hard work and at times no fun at all it put strains on plutonic romantic and family relationships and envelops your hole life during the build up your sleeping eating and training patterns are all for that short time your in the ring but to the fighter it is all worth it for what you gain personally the knowledge that you can push you self to your limits and come out the other side stronger for it ( again this is my oppinion and other people will have different ones)